this is hard. it could be letting go of a past love. letting go of good old pair of jeans that just don't cut it anymore. a thoroughly dog eared book. a baby girl all grown up. or, letting go of a time of life. a dream. a friend. a job.
some people do this "much more better," as Ella would say (ha!!!) than others. at this point in time, i know of someone that does this very gracefully- my grandmother. and she's done the opposite so very sweetly as well- holding on. it's for this example that i will hope for myself, the ability to overcome life's obstacles. if i could have anything from her, it would be her grace. truly, it would. i have the opportunity to hold on to a few of her belongings since she is now in an assisted living home, but it is honestly something difficult for me. yes, she is still here on earth. yes, these are more than treasures, they are memories. and those, i will gladly hold on without second thoughts of letting go. i thank the Lord for this...did you ever thought of that? we let go of many things, but for the most part, we can hold on to our memories, God willing. we can hold on to hope. to love.
i struggle with so much insecurity...it has been a huge obstacle for me in recent months, that i still am debating leaving the cyberworld for an indefinite period of time. i can't tell you how hard it is to see other people succeeding at particular things that i desire. and the thing is, i don't have the time or energy to do these things anyways, but my heart wants to, but then...it's a vicious cycle. leaving at this point seems to be the only way i can overcome or let go, but then, who knows if that is the right thing to do. i don't at this point, so i will keep seeking.
here is a peek at a creek loving boy...notice the muddied net, long sleeved shirt during summer, and a whistle hanging around his neck, given by his grandparents.
Oh, Amy, you're not alone in this--I also struggle with the same things. But while I can't know what's right for you, sometimes hanging in there makes it easier after a while:)
Posted by: Keshka | 08/22/2010 at 05:14 PM